though he was finishing up, i got to help him for a few minutes and in so doing i was transported back in time! though i have a house of my own to work on and do repairs, and have worked for two summers building stuff and working on diana's mom and david's place, the moment i started helping papa i was transported back to that eager child excited to help daddy build stuff! papa, ever the perfectionist, would rarely let me do the important stuff, instead i was the assistant. i would faithfully watch him work, trying to anticipate what tool or piece of wood he might need next. i always understood what he was doing because he was thorough in explaining it to me as we worked, and i learned the importance of doing a job right. his wise words: 'measure twice, cut once!' though he wouldnt let me do everything, i still learned so much from watching and helping. as i got older he would give me more and more responsibilities in the different projects i would help on, but it was his trained eye for detail that always guided the work.
as he finished up this particular job, i found myself once again anticipating what he would need next, where to lend a hand or steady a board; and it filled me with such happiness and appreciation for what he taught me, consciously and unconsciously. as i remember these things, i store them away for when i will have the opportunity to be the daddy in different projects with ledger. i look forward to guiding him as he takes the role of my helper. man, this whole fatherhood thing is so awesome!
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