the problems with email

i remember when emailing first showed up. it was so new and exciting! the problem was that the only people i knew were my friends i went to school with. and i always figured "why bother going through the hastle of turning on the computer, making sure my sister wasnt on the phone, try a dozen times to sign on to aol (and still fail) just so i could peck away at the keys of a keyboard all just to send a small message to a friend?" i just figured it was easier to call them on the phone, and a whole lot more fun.
i still kind of have that same feeling. sure, emails are great for short little messages or reminders, or sending info or pictures, but other than that, i would rather just talk on the phone for a while and catch up that way. i guess im just not very good at the one way conversation.

a brief look back

ive had this blog for about a month now. when i first started this i figured id try it for a month, and if i enjoyed it i would keep up on it, but if i got bored and didnt update it regularly i would just delete it. so, how have things been going? really good so far. its a whole lot more fun than i thought it would be. when i first heard about blogs i figured it was a stupid fad that would go away quickly. sure, it might be, but its been alot of fun so far. ive never been the journaling type, ive tried before but i get bored after about 3 days. its been cool taking time and organizing my thoughts (or lack there of) and share whats on my mind.
anyway, i think im addicted now. so, until they start making me pay for this stuff, i think ill keep plugging away at it!

i just had the craziest dream...

for some reason i cant figure out ive been having some really lucid dreams lately. usually i can remember dreams for a little bit after i wake up, maybe for 10 or 15 minutes. but the dreams are usually forgotten my the time im out of the shower. lately though, ive had some really crazy ones that just linger in my mind. the one this morning involved my brother and i going to some strange rome/pompii fantasy place to visit my dad. while we are there we meet up with my brothers friends, and we stay at a house owned by parents from my school. standard craziness so far. then it gets worse- the house is being robbed by gay roman ganstas who want all the silverware. we try and escape on a three seated unicycle (there are four of us, so one of us has to sit on another's shoulders) but end up getting really dizzy and fall over into a sandwich. i have no clue what its supposed to mean, but im just glad there werent any giant crabs wearing loafers... (extra points if you catch the reference)

the white sox suck

ok, let me explain that title. i dont really dislike the white sox, i dislike their fans. i live in a warzone area where the two warring sides are willing to kill for their opinions. white sox fans want to kill cubs fans, and cubs fans want to kill white sox fans. now, dont get me wrong, i hate cubs fans just as much as white sox fans. i dont care for any team at all. heck, i dont even like the game. all of these crazed fans care WAY too much about a boring game that is fun to play, but really boring to watch. but heres the thing that really gets me: most of the people who are these crazed fans only care about the teams because daddy does. if dad is a diehard fan then the children will follow suit. ah, its like a psychology lesson come to life. stupid.

(not) feeling groovy

this week is a short one, but that doesnt really make it any easier. tomorrow there wont be any kids, but its actually worse: we have to go to a teacher convention. suck. then on friday we have to come hear and spend the day working on files for accreditation. double suck. oh well, at least i have my health. oh wait, ive been sick all week and last night i had a fever. so, never mind about that 'having my health' thing. triple suck.

just wondering...

have you ever coughed so hard that you see blinky white spots for a couple minutes afterward? because i just did.

zoned out

it has been so hard to concentrate today. i am feeling really crappy. sinus, cough, throat stuff. i was feeling bad on sunday, but then it cleared up totally that afternoon and didnt show up at all yesterday, but then this morning- blammo! so today ive been taking it a little easier and trying to talk as little as possible so i dont end up in coughing fits. being sick totally sucks.

friends and family traditions

this weekend i went home to see my brother again (he heads back to germany tomorrow). we had a lot of fun. friday was nice and laid back. meat on the grill, chillin with the fam, chattin it up. later we got talking about movies (big surprise...) and my dad said 'hey, i would really like to see that kingdom of heaven movie.' so i headed to the video store and my dad and i were joined by my brother and we just hung out and watched and chatted (usually the chatting would make me angry during a movie, but i had already seen it before, so it was ok...)
on saturday we did one of my favorite family traditions: we went to the apple orchard! hurrah! i hadnt gone in a while because i havent been around when the family went. but this year it was special because my brother was around this time and we could go as a while family. i dont know, its just one of those things that is a lot of fun. we dont really do anything special, and we are usually gone in under an hour, but its comfortable in some strange 'i love my family' way.

saturday afternoon was when the friends took over. i was finally able to connect with dusty and just chill with him. we ended up going out for dinner, but he had something to do at 8, so i headed over to aarons. we chilled there all night. i must say, i am so much better informed on my fashion do and donts. this will help my life so much. the most valuable fashion lesson i could ever learn: i should not put my hair in a ponytail on the side of my head. critical stuff. thank you e network, you just saved my life. dusty came over later as well as rex. it was great. the best part was definitely the ridiculous visit to steak and shake at 2 in the morning...

the root of all that kills

last night i was busy cleaning up the ol place and i finally got a chance to try and balance my checkbooks. dang. i didnt realize it had been almost three weeks since i had done it last. oops. i got things taken care of and came (fairly) close to making all the numbers fit together. and then i realized something: money sucks. i dont mean that in philosphical 'oh, i think we should do away with possessions and just love everyone and junk', i mean the fact that i am not good at having any. so, i guess it would be more accurate to say this: i suck at money. yah, that sounds right. i can do ok with earning it, but im not so good at that whole 'not spending it' thing. there is so much crap i need (ok fine, want) to do with my house that i will never be able to make much headway. argh. i want a shed, i want a/c, i want new carpet, i want a dishwasher, i want i want i want. but i suck at money, so i probably wont get any of that. actually, i was right the first time- money does suck.

theolo-gee whiz!

today after one of my classes i had a student come up to me and ask "do you think that sometime i could stay after school and just talk theology with you?" dang. this job doesnt get much cooler than that.

old friends and new games

i stayed late after school yesterday to play games. usually if a teacher has to stay late its to grade papers or because there is a meeting. but no, i stayed so i could play games. i must admit that i am a video game fan. a few students asked me if i could stay after and play some wireless ds with them (for those unfamiliar, the ds is a handheld game system like a game boy, but cooler. and i am a dork and i have one.) so we did. we played for about an hour- and it was awesome! its childish, i know, but it was a lot of fun. we played bomberman.

it just so happened that yesterday our sports teams played another school and one of the coaches is an old friend from college. the only reason i got to see her is because i had stayed late to play ds, otherwise i would have left when i usually do and i would have missed seeing her. it was really cool to see her and catch up for a couple minutes. she said she is married. awkward... anyway, seeing her effected me more than i thought it would. im not entirely sure why it did, but a lot of those old college memories came flooding back. not necessarily in a bad way, but just in an unexpected way. i often times still feel like a college kid, but for the first time it really hit me just how far removed i am from that. removed in time, removed in location, and now realizing i am far removed in thought too. i havent thought about some of these college times in quite a while. every once in a while its nice to be reminded that i may still be a child at heart, my head is very much adult.

forgive me for this, but...

for the past month or two i have come to discover a new truth in life. it is one that i know most of my friends would really look down on me for, but i feel convicted. growing up most of my life thinking one certain thing to be true, but then slowly discovering that there is a better option, a stronger voice in the crowd. it has been a very difficult journey to this point, but now i feel as if i dont stand up and say it, then i am denying who i am. and i refuse to let society and those around me try and bully me out of what i feel is right. so i come to you with conviction in my heart we i say to you this: craig ferguson is funnier than conan obrien.

finally, an exciting weekend ahead

im really looking forward to this weekend. im heading to my folks house. its my moms birthday on saturday, and my brother is going to be in town. he is in the military and stationed in germany, so its been a while (june) since ive seen him. my other family members havent seen him since march. actually, he is in town right now, but since i dont live in the same town as the family...
since we as a family are so spread out, the game plan is to get some portraits of my bro, sis, bro-in-law, nephew, niece, and myself. we will be buying a few photos and giving them to my mom for her birthday. awww. arent we just such loving children. i dont know, it was my sisters idea, im just going along with it.

serene, but not calm

dang. this heat needs to let up, and now.
ive been watching the old episodes of firefly lately in preparation to see serenity. yah, i know, im a little late since it came out last weekend, but hey, ive been busy, so shup up and quit botherin me. anyway, ive watched about 8 episodes so far and have really been getting a kick out of them. the little world created is really interesting and unique. i was trying to tell my dad was it is like and the best i could come up with is "its kinda a sci fi asian western action drama comedy... thing." thats the best i gots. but i really dig it alot. the captain i automatically love from when he played jonny on two guys. the pilot is great- the pirate from dodgeball. and the best though is the engineer. wow. ~now paging ms. biel, you have some competition.~

christmas in october

its so wonderful outside. i think it got all the way up to 87 today. this makes me so happy. except that it doesnt. i totally hate warm weather. i would be all set if the mercury never went above 70. ever. but alas, cruel fate. at least i have air conditioning in my classroom, so the heat is easily ignored.
anyway, it was a rather uneventful weekend. got a couple movies. watched em. watched the first twenty minutes of king arthur. that was about enough of that. so, i moved on. (on a side note, most videos i see are a bit old or odd because i usually go to the library to pick out my weekend entertainment. after all, its free.) next up was a strange one with robin williams called the final cut. it was kind of cool, but not really. finally, i went old school and got gung ho. you remember, that one with michael keaton and the japan stuff. classic. i never actually saw it before, but my old roomie in slc and i happened to catch about 20 minutes of it one time and proceeded to quote it for the next two years. "if you deed good befoe, den whyyy...?" great stuff.